Introduction

Introductory blog posts feel so redundant and cliché, but you have to start somewhere right? What sort of content is even meant to be created as an introduction?

With no specific space I feel obliged to start, I’ll start with this – there’s this proverb (or whatever you’d like to call it) that says something along the lines of “When you’re feeling lost, go back to your roots” and another that tells you to go back to the people, activities, place, etc… that make you feel most yourself. Encroaching on the 25th year of my life, I’d like to think that “going back to my roots” is exactly what I’m doing in starting this blog. By that I mean that writing has always been a fundamental part of my life. As a kid, I would journal nonstop, write stories, and read and as I grew older I’d give journalism a try and stick to my reading and journaling.

As life tends to do, mine became more hectic and with time I lost the habit of turning to my journal for comfort, creative expression, or just mundane activity. In this period of transition and uncertainty that I’m currently facing, I found myself searching for some semblance of grounding and I thought Might as well give blogging a shot.

I more often than not get wrapped up in my work and my work now is primarily sitting in front of a computer screen. I’ll often forego many things just because I get so trapped at my desk, staring at a screen. In creating a pastime that lives in my laptop, I figure the likelihood I feel inclined to follow through is higher.

To sum it up – writing has always been an integral aspect of who I am as a person and I’ve lost touch with it. Texting, writing emails, creating captions just doesn’t scratch that itch I’m realizing I’ve been in need of.

So here we are. For anyone who doesn’t know me – my name is Isabelle (Izzy) Roshko. I grew up in Boulder, Colorado and have two little sisters, Sage (Soggy) and Annie. I moved to LA to go to UCLA where I received my Bachelor of Arts in Psychology and a minor in English. Still unsure about my final path, I pursued a Master of Business Administration at FIDM. I currently live in West LA with my sister and two dogs. I left my job in fashion and have since become a freelance marketing strategist and have a startup events business, Izzy x Andy.

Facts aside, hopefully as the blog wears on who I am at my core will become more apparent – I’m a fan of revealing by showing, not telling.

With switching to freelance and starting a company, I’ve found myself suffering from an enormous amount of imposter syndrome – like keep-you-up-at-night and want-to-throw-up-all-day imposter syndrome. As many can attest, working solely from home also gives you a bit of cabin fever and I just need an outlet – hence the blog.

On the topic of imposter syndrome – which I’ve already decided to dedicate my next blog too – my dad called me earlier this afternoon as I was taking the dogs on a walk. I had texted him earlier that I’ve been really struggling with feeling lost and incapable. We had a great chat and he cheered me up, however as I hung up the phone I looked at the time and it was 4:44 pm.

Call me a hippy or whatever you want, I literally do not care, I love spirituality and astrology and all that (as some sort of atheist let me have this small subset of beliefs!). Angel numbers are extremely hot right now so I’m sure most are familiar, however if you’re not angel numbers are “repeating number sequences, often used as a guide for deeper spiritual exploration.” In my current state of anxiety, I’ve been noticing them more often and 444 is specifically associated with stability. Essentially, your life is on a path of grounding and building something meant to last.

Considering I’m at a point in my life where I’m on my own in a professional sense and I’ve been feeling ungrounded, seeing 444 right as I hung up from my tearful, yet motivating conversation with my dad gave me a welcome sense of relief.

So, I went home, sat down on my couch with my laptop, and spun up this blog. Let’s see where this goes, shall we?